Lilly's 6th Angelversary

Dearest Lilly,

I was so glad to get to bring your Christmas tree Friday.  December 15th ... your Angelversary.  The events of that day in 2011 forever burned into my mind.

Your old Christmas tree had finally fallen apart.  Mom Jenny gave me this artificial tree branch and I picked out some ornaments at Walmart to put on it.  I think it turned out nice.  Red white and blue - for my July 4th baby!  I really liked how the red glittery bows sparkled in the sunshine.  Beautiful!  Though not as beautiful as you of course.  

Do you like your new cherub?  It was time to replace your original one.  It was cracked badly and parts were gone.  It is not easy picking out a new cherub!  I looked on Amazon and the choices were overwhelming!  I felt so frustrated because I wanted you to have the perfect one.  Just when I felt like giving up, I saw it!  I just knew that was THE ONE!

I did notice the cherub isn't quite as heavy as your original one though, so I hope it stays put OK.  I brought your old one home to put in your memorial garden.  (Which is colorful with pansies for the winter.)

As usual I'm anxious to hurry and get through December.  I'm looking forward to the new year and what always feels like a fresh start January 1st.  So many things in life have spiraled out of control since you died.  But we're picking up the pieces and healing.  It sure can be a slow, confusing journey.  But I am blessed to have HOPE.

"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" - Jeremiah 29:11

Love always,

Mama