|LillyBear modeling a scarf crocheted by Tabby, that I gave away earlier this week in memory of Lilly|
Last week. I got to experience another Lilly blessing. Cindy, a woman that I got to know, because of Lilly, invited me over to bless me by letting me pick out something special from her clothing boutique, for free, in honor of Lilly. Cindy sells LuLaRoe clothing and had gotten the Fourth of July clothing capsule in and was hoping I could find something to remind me of my "little firecracker." (The red/white/blue is special to Cindy too as she is the mama of a solider!) Cindy's generosity and remembrance of Lilly did me a world of good.
I am slowly realizing that it really blesses others to let them bless me at times.
|Cindy, me, and Tabby|
Cindy showed me that I could wear it other ways, besides just as a regular maxi skirt. I could wear it as a dress too! (Though I would wear something over it for sure. I have a white jeans jacket that will work perfect when the weather cools back off some.)
Tabby tried on a navy dress that looked great on her. But red/white/blue isn't her thing as much as it is mine. When Cindy showed a dress that had gold in it, Tabby knew she had found "her one."
|It may not be Lilly-colored, but Cindy blessed Tabby with this dress in honor of her little sister Lilly!|
|me and my girls - July 2011|
Even though our old farmhouse is actually Lilly-colored on the outside, yesterday was time to decorate for Lilly's birthday/Independence Day. My favorite thing is to hang my bunting:
This is the same bunting you can see in this picture:
|July 2011 (photo by Steve Rubin Photography)|
And I decorated the living room fireplace:
This cute horse is Lilly's birthday present for this year:
I'm lovin' these pinwheels:
Finally, I decorated Lilly's tree and the fireplace hearth:
(Oh and you can see a peek of our tablecloth in the above picture - it is oilcloth and is white with red and blue stars. I love it!)
My kids are all looking forward to celebrating Independence Day/Lilly's birthday. They like the routine of going to the parade in the morning and then in the evening, releasing balloons at Lilly's grave then watching the fireworks. Solomon doesn't remember those things very much but he is very excited to hear that we will be having a birthday cake for Lilly. He's already asked if he could blow out the candles. :)
Grief really is a roller coaster and I never know what to expect. Though I miss Lilly dreadfully, I am finding that I am looking forward to celebrating her 6th birthday, even though she will be celebrating it in heaven. I am not having any of the crushing, sickening, depression and dread that I had last December, as her angelversary approached. And I am thankful.
"Cast all your anxiety on God because he cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:7