I received the above quote in a recent card from the SOFT Bereavement Committee. I just keep thinking about how true that quote is.
|Tabby found this picture of Lilly this morning, reminding me how cute she was!|
But soon - I'll be ok again and breathing normally and remembering Lilly with a smile. The water will be calm again.
There's just something about "The Angelversary." It's harder in a different way than the other days, including Lilly's birthday. I dread it. The farther we get into December the more I dread and even fear it. Then it is here. And, usually reflecting on the day after it passes, it's not as bad as I fear it will be.
Yesterday we sewed Lilly-colored bags to put the things in. The boys both helped with the sewing machine - Hunter handled the foot pedal and Solomon the presser foot while I guided the material:
The boys were so fascinated how the drawstring bags turned out that they begged me to sew them some. Honestly I was a little irritated because I didn't want to cut fabric and sew any more bags. But they were so very excited - and thankful for their bags - that it was worth it.
My mom sent me some money for my "Lilly Memorial Fund" and I used that today to buy the items needed for the health kits. When we got home, Hunter divided everything up and then stuffed each bag:
I'll mail those off this week, along with a nice collection of small stuffed animals that each my kids gave up.
I made a mistake at the store this morning. I decided it would be fun to combine the boys Christmas shopping for other family members with our shopping for the donation items. Never again! The greed of getting and wanting things for Christmas quickly overpowered the sweetness of buying things for others in Lilly's name.
When we got home, I found a flower delivery from my dad and step-mom. I look forward to all the beautiful lilies opening soon:
Last week I received this sweet framed picture of Lilly - embellished with lilies! - from the mom of a young woman that lived 19 years (!!) with Trisomy 18:
A.K., a co-worker of Frank, sent me this cute Lilly-colored angel potholder:
She's always been so thoughtful to consistently remember us and Lilly.
When I opened my inbox this morning, I had a sweet e-mail from my friend H.B. who wanted me to know she was thinking of Lilly and I.
As I reflect on these things - the kindness and generosity of others - it makes me feel better. It really does. That coupled with writing this post. (Writing has always been incredibly therapeutic for me.) I am even breathing easier now. Thank you God!
"He has carried our sorrows." - Isaiah 53:4
Solomon added some humor to my day - running around wrapped in a Cars sheet that Tabby made him when he was a baby:
For Lilly's angel ornament this year, I got her the soft pink angel bunny - in the top right of her tree (angel theme, of course, this month):
"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted ..." - Psalm 34:18
My very last picture I took of Lilly - the day before she died:
See you again one day, my Lilly!