Big Sister Lilly??!!

This picture is from June 2010 when I was pregnant with Lilly.

It seems like we never know what's going to happen next lately. But God has blessed us. Our angel girl Lilly is going to be a big sister! What?? That's what I said. (Especially since I've never been able to get pregnant easily and I wasn't thinking about it now.) Here we all have been missing Lilly so very terribly. Well maybe she put in a word with God and asked Him to create a baby for us to hold.

And Lord willing that is what we will be doing in September. (Due date is September 14.)

To answer a question I know many of you will have - is there a chance the next baby will have Trisomy 18? It would be very very rare for that to happen. Honestly though, I wouldn't mind a special needs baby. But I trust that however God has knit this baby together - boy or girl - it will be perfect for us. Just like Lilly was. And like T. and H. are.

T. voiced her concern today that she was afraid to love the new baby too much - that she might be disloyal to Lilly. I told her that it was normal to feel that way. It's crossed my own mind too. But that we would keep doing things to remember and honor Lilly - all the days of our lives - and that we would always have a special love and place for her in our hearts. Always.

This morning H. was pretending to have made a batch of cookies. He said he was going to take them to heaven when he died to share with Lilly. I told him that Lilly didn't need her g-tube in heaven - she could eat by mouth. He exclaimed "What?? Really??" in complete delight.

"Through the praise of children and infants you have established a stronghold against your enemies, to silence the foe and the avenger." - Psalm 8:2