Monday, February 14, 2011
Laundry with Lilly
Weight check = 8 lbs. 5 oz.
Sadly our "great experiment" has failed. Lilly didn't even gain an ounce in the last 5 days of having no formula added to her breastmilk. The thought of starting formula again is very disappointing. Without it Lilly's digestive system has been working so much better and she has been tummy ache free.
On Saturday Lilly helped with laundry. You can see by this last picture that it wore her out!
Saturday morning my oldest daughter and I went to local rest home. Her Keepers at Home group was having a Valentines Party for the residents. The girls made cards and we had desserts. The girls took turns playing the piano or doing recitations or singing. As the girls were performing, I stood and looked at the residents. Some seemed happy as they smiled and either sang along or nodded their heads to the music. But some looked so defeated. Vacant stares, unhappiness, vast disappointment for some because they had to have sugar-free cookies instead of the "pretty cupcakes." At least one resident was wheeled in and just slept.
As I watched I was suddenly struck with the thought that a long life isn't necessarily a "reward." It is not something that should even be desired. Instead we should strive to live each day joyfully. As I thought more about this off and on this past weekend, I suddenly began to feel so much less fearful of Lilly dying. I'm not saying I don't want her with me for a long time. I do. But if it were up to me to choose, I want much more for her days to be joyful than long in number. I don't want her to ever get to that "empty, deflated" state. I'd rather the Lord take her home first.
"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18